So - you traded the yolk of your previous nature for a new one? That kinda sucks.
I mean, if it makes you happy... I can't say it's wrong. But, going on about things being 'impossible' just makes me want to sink my fingers into it and rip it apart. I've done it before, not to brag, but I have. If it's impossible for you - I guess that'd mean you'd just need someone on the outside to make it work.
Why'd you become a heavenly servant anyways? I think you'd have been fun to meet as a youkai.
It only seems strange to you because you're thinking of it as some arbitrary rule I must follow. Does an animal seem trapped to you, for behaving as its nature dictates?
I... Actually, I believe I may be more youkai now than I have been in centuries. My contract is broken, so there is nothing to truly make me a shinshi but my own desire to return. I've already felt that it's harder to control myself. There is an ache for violence.
Hm. You know, I actually can't recall? It was a long time ago, I suppose. The memory must have faded.
I remember being very, very tired. Mikage's hands were gentle and there... I believe there was blood? Perhaps I grew bored of violence against those that posed no challenge to me... Why can't I remember?
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I mean, if it makes you happy... I can't say it's wrong. But, going on about things being 'impossible' just makes me want to sink my fingers into it and rip it apart. I've done it before, not to brag, but I have. If it's impossible for you - I guess that'd mean you'd just need someone on the outside to make it work.
Why'd you become a heavenly servant anyways? I think you'd have been fun to meet as a youkai.
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I... Actually, I believe I may be more youkai now than I have been in centuries. My contract is broken, so there is nothing to truly make me a shinshi but my own desire to return. I've already felt that it's harder to control myself. There is an ache for violence.
As for why I became Mikage's servant,
( 2/3 i lied )
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I remember being very, very tired. Mikage's hands were gentle and there... I believe there was blood? Perhaps I grew bored of violence against those that posed no challenge to me... Why can't I remember?
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[ not memories that are bad, just the inability to keep memories where they properly belong!! ]
Anyways, you look nothing like an animal - it's hard to treat you like one. You have such a forceful personality and a cute face!