It only seems strange to you because you're thinking of it as some arbitrary rule I must follow. Does an animal seem trapped to you, for behaving as its nature dictates?
I... Actually, I believe I may be more youkai now than I have been in centuries. My contract is broken, so there is nothing to truly make me a shinshi but my own desire to return. I've already felt that it's harder to control myself. There is an ache for violence.
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I... Actually, I believe I may be more youkai now than I have been in centuries. My contract is broken, so there is nothing to truly make me a shinshi but my own desire to return. I've already felt that it's harder to control myself. There is an ache for violence.
As for why I became Mikage's servant,